Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla nalang naisip ko na mag-update ng blog ngayon. Siguro, dahil sa pressure, o sa pagod, o baka dahil inspired lang talaga ako. I just feel the need to release the feeling that I have right now. I am feeling kind of nostalgic, sentimental and gibberish all at the same time.

Bukas, 30th Anniversary na ng lokal namin. And for this very special event, isa ako sa napili na mag-EMCEE plus my three other friends. I admit, nafi-feel ko na ngayon ang kaba. Aba, hindi rin biro ang tumayo sa harap ng maraming tao at i-present ang sarili mo. Not to mention that this is a very big event. Natural lang naman siguro ang kabahan ng ganito.

Apart form this, madami pa ding mga bagay ang tumatakbo sa isipan ko ngayon. There’s the school stuffs… loads of it, so to speak. Nakakainis dahil vacation ngayon and we are supposed to enjoy ourselves. Pero hindi nga gann ang nangyari dahil grabe ang trabaho na iniwan samin. It literally hunts me in my sleep. Pero what can I do? My system is all programmed to relax and chill. Kahit pa gusto ko gumawa ng mga dapat gawin, ayaw naman mag function ng brain ko. Gawd.

Basta, madami pa. But all I wanna do right now is to relax and have the time of my life. Bahala na si batman.

My cousin has offered me a sideline over the phone while I was on my Entrepreneurial Class. I got pretty hyped for the offer—revising an article, getting its gist and you’ve got a pay of seventhousandpesos a month. Not bad, huh?

Point is, If I can handle it? I am studying, and only has two days of break. With the unlimited bank of home works in college, I don’t think I can handle both the pressure. Especially next year, where all of my three reports, one research paper and one feasibility study is all scheduled for next year! Now I dunno whether to consider myself lucky or just plain unlucky. Cool thing is, I am chillax since the start of the class until the season’s break. The unholy truth is… next year, it might be the hell era for me.

The no sleep, haggard-looking me might emerge next year. But I don’t wanna think of it. Besides, it is my 18th Birthday next year, and it wouldn’t be cool if Ill have zits all over my face and look older than my age. Riggght?

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I like being alone, but I hate the feeling of being lonely. When you’re alone, you have time for yourself. Your thoughts finally catch up to you. You set your mind on things and everything is just clearer. Nothing’s bothering you and everything just feels right for once. When you feel lonely, you feel as if no one’s there for you. It feels like no one understands you or is willing to listen. It feels like you’re screaming in a crowded room, yet not one person hears you.

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Lalalala… things are never been this great! My idol just followed me and I am soo happy! Err, I just thought I should post this for the sake of my happiness. Shoot!

I know right…

It’s been definitely a while since I last played catching up with you, guys. Honestly, I have so many things to tell you and I don’t know which one of them is to tell. I have been subjected to various types of emotions over the past few weeks. Some of them are happy memories; some are almost too painful to remember. Others are too good to be true, it had made me feel like in cloud-nine state of mind. There are also times that I feel so empathic over such stuffs, say, the type of rotten society that we are in. And to add insult to injury, school has been crazy over the past few weeks. The semester has just opened and you wouldn’t believe how f*ucked up everything was since then. But one thing’s for certain… I am somewhat ‘surviving’ all this mess… whatever you wanna call it. I am coping up, thank God.

But of course, there are times where I feel quite alone in my existence. And due to this, if truth be told, most of the times I think about involving myself in a relationship sometimes. Yeah, like having a boyfriend. These past few days, I kind of imagine myself having someone to turn on to when everything else is a mess. I imagine someone cheering me up, saying such dear encouragements, holding me, cuddling me, even kissing me just to turn things okay. I know this sound like a desperate whine, but the hell with that. Maybe I really am desperate. Then everything makes sense.

Right now, I just wanted someone to talk to. Someone that I can lean on. Someone that will cheer me up and make me feel secured and safe. I just want someone caring for me—that kind of care that makes that person complete all throughout since the day he met me. I want someone to love me and hold me and make me feel like without me, he too, is incomplete.

Good evening. I love All Time Low. Lol, yeah. Right. Im supposed to research for my home work. But, obviously, I cant resist my urge for Tumblr. Haha. There you have it. Heyho hello, Tumblr!